"hand work, heart work, love work, soul work.."

have you ever...?

2012-02-11T16:27:00.000+08:00

Kerinduan....

2012-01-29T22:11:00.002+08:00

tak akan menghilang...

kadang-kadang.

2012-01-29T21:18:00.002+08:00

kadang-kadang,

kita tertanya-tanya kenapa doa kita belum termakbul?

kenapa belum dipermudahkan segala kesulitan?

kenapa belum ringan segala dugaan?

tapi,

sudahkah kita istiqamah melakukan segala amal kewajipan?

sudahkah kita tinggalkan segala-gala dosa dan larangan?

Macrophobic.

2012-01-06T12:01:00.004+08:00

"As is the case with all phobias, the person impacted by Macrophobia has experienced a trauma at some time in their life. That traumatic experience is that automatically and consistently associated with long waits.

While it is a common experience to feel impatient when made to wait, the macrophobic person becomes increasingly anxious and fearful as that wait lengthens. Perhaps this individual was always a bit impatient and eventually that impatience developed into a real phobia.

This person is fearful of not knowing exactly how long they will be made to wait.

Perhaps this individual simply despises the loss of control that is felt when waiting for long periods of time. Maybe the person coping with Macrophobia watched the negative reactions of others during long waits and began to imitate that response."

The Military Love Quotes.

2011-12-15T12:07:00.005+08:00

The Military Love Quotes

i still remember, in the few first years i was in a relationship with a military man, it felt so hard to understand the difference, and harder to be understood by others.rasa macam susah nak bercerita dan berkongsi dengan kawan, because the person who can truly understand what it's like to love a military man..is another girl who is in love with a military man as well.years after, i meet few others who are in the same boat accidentally in a group. waktu tu rasa relief dan happy sangat sebab akhirnya jumpa orang yang faham apa yang kita rasa. sebab mereka pun rasa yang sama. rupanya bila kita berada dalam kalangan orang yg sama seperti kita, kita makin kuat. makin tabah.dan selepas tengok drama series Army Wives, i just realize it's not us.. but it's the entire world.! tak kira la what country or nation, military's partner hold the same code and emotion.and i decided to create a page, the love quotes, especially for military's partner. not just for the army's, but generally for all military wife and partner. because i want them to know that, we are not alone. we have each other to console and soothe, no matter which part of world we are in. and to constantly remind that how blessed we are to fall in love with these great guys.
sometimes i forgot this small world of us; the military love quotes page. and i thought nothing good comes out of it. who would care for some sort of love quotes? but when i read on how they feel glad to discover this page that give them moral support they need, i feel content. happy and content. :)nobody needs to be alone after all. even if it means some strangers and quotes to lighten you up.
and today, i am amazed on how they keep the page growing, keep communicating and supporting each other, without even need the founder to keep it up.a Malaysian army's wife succeed in connecting military's partner from many sides of the world. when even some of them don't even know where Malaysia is.is it important??nope. because,,

the military have the code,the wives have their own.

masa terbang dengan pantas.!

2011-12-12T15:58:00.002+08:00

terutamanya jika masa itu masa yang menggembirakan.

cuti seminggu rasa macam eh eh bukan ke baru semalam je cuti, dah habis? esok dah kerja? esok dah kena byebye spouse?

cuti kali ini, banyak jugak perkara yang dapat buat bersama. walaupun hanya bermalas-malasan seharian depan tivi, wah santai begitu memang sangat seronok. relax sangat-sangat.

atau pun bergaduh tentang siapa yang perlu pergi mandi dulu, sebab sama-sama mata asyik melekat depan tivi. masih lagi seronok.

ada banyak adventure yang dihadapi sepanjang cuti ni, tapi memang betul la kata orang, kalau kita bersusah payah dengan orang yang kita sayang, kepayahan tu tak la begitu terasa.

“Don't you think it's better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it,

than to be just okay for your whole life?”

― Audrey Niffenegger, The Time Traveler's Wife

^__^

Kawan.

2011-11-29T23:32:00.003+08:00

Kawan adalah insan asing yg muncul dlm hidup kita,
yg juga boleh jadi significant seperti keluarga.
Atau yang tak meninggalkan apa2 kesan..datang dan pergi.
Waktu kita masih kanak2, kawan itu seperti satu permainan-- sangat menyeronokkan.
Bila meningkat remaja, we tend to think that we need to have and to make a tonned of friends. The merrier you have, indicates the better you are.
However, as we grow wiser (dalam erti kata lain..makin tua ��) we realize that we don't need thousands of friends, as long as we have a few of true ones.
Yes we really don't.

Cuba fikir sejenak, apabila kita down, sedih, buntu, atau sangat teruja sekalipun, kawan2 yg manakah yg kita hubungi?.
Dapat ke kita meluahkan isi hati dengan cara yg sama kpd kawan yg lain sekiranya kawan yg nak kita hubungi tadi tu unreachable?

Jika kita dalam kesusahan, kawan yg manakah yg dalam diam ketawa puas hati? Yang mana pulak yg bersedia menolong? Atau yg tetap bersama walau how bad you are.
Macam mana pula dengan kawan yg tidak boleh menerima kelebihan yg kita miliki lalu menganggap itu satu ancaman?

Which one is worth to keep?

For me, as i grow older i realized that i am blessed with these few friendships i have; that i dont need more people to fit in this 'ship' because i already have them. :)
I dont believe in the phrase "friends forever" as sometimes we need to let go some intoxicated friendships in order for the better one to take place.

Right now i just miss few dearies that filled in my days during my study life. Miss doing the activities with them, even though if the 'activities' just mean going to bazaar ramadhan together, or teasing one another.
Despite how different we are, we just have the chemistry, you know. :)

a new year.

2011-11-29T15:57:00.002+08:00

dah masuk tahun yang baru ye..

saya berasa sangat bersyukur... alhamdulillah.. bersyukur dengan segala yang saya miliki sekarang. keluarga, kerjaya, semuanya.

kehidupan walaupun tak bermewah-mewah, tapi bahagia dengan segala yang ada.

keinginan pada sesuatu itu ada, itu lumrah manusia. seperti perasaan ingin mempunyai dining table walaupun tak lah terlalu memerlukan buat masa sekarang. :)

betul lah cakap suami, perasaan paling best adalah waktu kita nak kan benda tu. sebelum kita berhasil untuk dapatkan. untuk sekarang, mari kita treasure perasaan tu.

tapi saya masih ada expectation untuk tahun yang baru ni.

1. beri fokus kepada kesihatan diri, fizikal & rohani.

2. lebih komited mengenai skincare treatment.

ni antara perkara yang saya perlu untuk lebih konsisten. i'll try. i'll try.

#bengang vol.2

2011-11-23T13:30:00.002+08:00

should i be touched by the effort of your call from another part of the world?

i wish i didn't pick up.

so much so, i wanted to end it badly. like you removed me in the first place.

im not sorry that i don't really talk.

we are no longer friend. you know.

Hardship.

2011-11-12T22:32:00.001+08:00

U're struggling there. And im struggling here.
This will be one of the longest time we've been apart since 02.09.2011, and honestly i can't take it very well.
I miss sitting on the couch together at home, watching tv.. Every second is very precious when you're around.

I miss you, husband..
I wish you're here..

#bengang

2011-11-01T15:02:00.003+08:00

panas hati sangat-sangat... i wish i had removed you in the first place!

but then i just realize, i'm not like you. i am better.

if you intended to have a thing, should be ages ago.

so why the friendship has to be ended! why now??

as i'm the one who should take the blame.

don't put me in the situation with both of you.

don't put me as the reason!! it's not flattering at all!

stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you are officially no longer my friend. or maybe we never were friend.

Unwanted.

2011-10-30T16:47:00.001+08:00

I think im moving but i go nowhere.

Last Sunday Night.

2011-10-24T16:57:00.002+08:00

...i love how you whisper the sweet nothings to my ear...

you are the spongebob at the train station.

2011-10-24T16:28:00.005+08:00

...but do i look this 'monyok' every time you leave?

or worse? huhu..

P.S. darling brought the bag-pack like that too.! cute!

particular terrific Thursday!

2011-10-20T14:20:00.004+08:00

smile this big!!!

^_^

i wish.

2011-10-17T15:30:00.006+08:00

military life have mercy on me.

i've given you my time on last 24-7 full week.

even when i was sick i still lost over you.

don't try to steal it again this week.

i only ask for 2 days. and it's not even fully mine.

+_+

Start loving Friday for different reason.

2011-10-06T21:13:00.003+08:00

Used to love Friday as the 'mark' for resting days on weekend.
However now i love for the fact that the love of my life will be beside me once again.
With just the thought of that, could make my thursday better already. To be able to stroke the hair, and having the existence of your other-half right beside you is the best feeling.
God is really great. I am really thankful for granted me with a lovable husband, and awaken me that "hubungan yang halal itu sangat indah".
You'll be granted with good deed for loving and missing the person whom you have the right. MasyaAllah.. :)

I once said to najib, "beruntungnya org yang dapat tinggal bersama suami.. Do they realize that?"
They should be thankful as many of us would be dying to have the same chance.
As an army wife, with work-commitment my self, i will be thankful enough just to have my spouse right next to me on each weekend.
He is the same Najib, who used to be my friend. My boyfriend. And my fiance.
But he is my husband, with that, makes all the difference.

P.s. For those who drop by, i pray that you will find/have found the love too. :)

PadaMu ku bersujud...

2011-09-30T16:51:00.002+08:00

sabar. redha.

as the weeks passed by...

2011-09-27T15:31:00.009+08:00

journey we've been through so far as Mr. & Mrs. Najib.

indescribable.

and never a day that i miss him less.

once a boyfriend. then a fiance.

and now a husband.

darling husband... this one for you. :)

"boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away,

beating like a drum and its coming your way!"

and my heart says,

"a house is not a home,

when no one there..to hold you tight..

and no one there you can kiss goodnight..

miss you darling..."

An army's wife.

2011-09-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

after being married to my husband, i didn't formally blogging any post. time constraint, and also i lost for words.

just like right now, i stare for quite something before i write sentences. maybe I've been infected with syndrom malas-menulis-bila-dah-kawen. [err..ade ke syndrom camtu??]

however husband encouraged me to write.

touched by my lovable num #1 fan, i'll do blogging again..

Peringatan...

2011-09-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

WAHAI SANG ISTERI...

Jadilah engkau perhiasan yang tinggi nilainya di dalam rumah tangga,

sumber penyejuk dan kebahagiaan hati suami,

berhiaslah engkau untuk menyenangkan suami,

jagalah hatinya agar engkau tak menyakiti dia.

Walaupun dengan hal-hal yang kecil.

Katakan kepadanya, jika akan berangkat mencari nafkah:

“Wahai suamiku carilah rezeki yang halal di sisi Allah,

janganlah engkau pulang membawa rezeki yang haram untuk kami.

Kami rela berlapar dan hidup susah dengan makanan yang halal.”

credit to Kak Chik.

Aku terima nikahnya...

2011-09-21T11:47:00.003+08:00

"Ya Allah, aku berlindung denganMu daripada kegelisahan dan kesedihan, dan aku berlindung dengan-Mu daripada sifat lemah dan malas, dan aku berlindung dengan-Mu dari sifat penakut dan bakhil, dan aku berlindung dengan-Mu daripada bebanan hutang dan penindasan manusia."

alhamdulillah... pada 4 syawal dengan satu lafaz akhirnya sudah sah menghalalkan hubungan antara kami.. dan menjadi isteri pada suami tercinta..

semoga Allah swt sentiasa melimpahi rahmat ke atas rumahtangga kami, limpahi kami dengan taufik dan hidayah, kurniakan keharmonian.. dan jauhkan dari segala irihati dan khianat..

sesungguhnya, hanya dia kekasih ku dunia dan akhirat...

lelaki yang halal untuk dirindui, dicintai, dikasihi dan dihormati.. alhamdulillah...

Someday...

2011-09-02T00:00:00.001+08:00

someone is going to thank you for letting me go.

and you know what, that someday has arrived.

and i really thank you, too. for letting me go.

i'm glad you did.

i really do. :)

terima kasih.

Price tag.

2011-08-15T20:36:00.002+08:00

When the time comes, i will take it back. Even every single dust of it.
For now, it's still yours.

ku mengharapkan Ramadhan kali ini penuh makna...

2011-08-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

For this RAMADHAN, let's trade FACEBOOK for FAITHBOOK (al-Quran),
where we CONNECT to Allah,
TAG our hearts,
LIKE doing good deeds,
ADD doa and prayers,
SHARE wealth through charity,
POKE conscience,
UNTAG sins and
CONFIRM our love to Allah and His Prophet s.a.w..

InsyaAllah... :')

Salam Ramadhan

2011-08-06T15:25:00.001+08:00

"Sabar itu separuh daripada iman.
And you're the test for my patience."

Come what may...

2011-08-02T21:49:00.002+08:00

"We may not be the best of what we are. We may not talk often. We may have lack of time to spend with. We may sometimes feel like being neglected. I may cry without you noticing. You might feel hurt without me realizing. But I just want you to know that no matter how difficult things can be, in the long run, yet you still have me.. and I still have you.

We still have us. :)"

30 JULY 2006

2011-07-30T00:00:00.003+08:00

there was a guy.

wearing maroon shirt, holding Kosmo newspaper in hand. with that particular nokia3220.

you had me at "hello"...

"this is the one i want to spend the rest of my life with."

for better.

and for worse.

only you.

sayang. =)

for this very day... i dedicate this for you.

first korean song. :p

Ost. Lovers In Paris- Only You

Lovers in Paris

2011-07-28T22:22:00.002+08:00

watching Lovers in Paris made me overly sensitive. demm~

tiba-tiba rasa hidung asyek berair. sobs sobs. macam ai pulak yang actress nye.

tengok Xiu He derita, ai rasa sedih amat.

tengok Tai Young nangis, ai mula la nak sensitip2 dengan sesape berkenaan. tengok Ki-Joo yang bongek tak reti bercinta tapi cuba balajar berdating-dating sejak cinta dekat Tai-Young, ai rasa auwwww suwwit nye dia nihhhh...

kenapa sangat mendalami dan memahami watak nih, drama je pun.

cis. benciw leww camni..

sekarang ni dah masuk episode akhir, sedih jugak. jadi pada sape2 bagi ai upset harini, ai memang terasa 5kali ganda. hmmph.

p.s. nak pergi donload lagu dia ah, nak sambung layan elmo masa driving lak. @_@~

The Last Goodbye~

2011-07-28T22:00:00.006+08:00

Nor Farihan Azizan - 134996 (Final)

The Last Good Bye

A tall, fair looking young lady is standing there; smiling. There is something about saying good bye, without the words goodbye. What a present moment has brought to her life. She seems to sure enough that she deserves it. She deserves the happiness. However a heart could only measure one love, right? Or could it be even more? If it couldn't, why does she feel that the invisibly written of that name is still there?

She knows nothing about football. In fact, she hates football. She couldn't understand why people go crazy running for a ball, for heaven sake. Thus, she is still patiently sitting there munching her biscuits while watching his game. The evening’s sun is so warm, and the sky has never been brighter and bluer than that particular evening. Even the sun is giving its bless, she thinks deeply. A loud roar bursts through out the field when he scores the goal. She smiles triumphantly. She feels her heart is pounding hard with pride. As she predicted before, his school’s team wins the game.

"Would you be going back with us, dear?" Her friend asks while packing up their things. The field is getting emptier by time. "I don’t think so, I’m thinking of watching his next game in the hall, so I see u later, ok?" and there she walks to the big wide hall. There is something great about being the organiser, you have freedom to linger around anywhere, and for her that makes the meaning that she will see him more and more.

"Why, yeah for sure I called you to distract you. I can't let you win everything, my school is the host, in case you'd have forgotten that fact" and she giggles, the sweetest giggling she would want to have. She hears his laughter. Her heart quivers within. There is something about his laugh. There is always something about it. It sounds so jovial and affectionate. She can’t figure out why her heart always blooming likes a big yellow sunflower when she hears the laugh of him.

"Well, you wish girl! Ha-ha see, I knew your intention! I’ll never get distracted though I shall admit the phone's vibration has made me stunt for a moment. But hey, only for a few second, okay? Too bad, I still win the game!" he laughs again, and she laughs too. As same as that evening, the night also promises them a thousand stars in the sky. The big round moon and sparkling stars are looking down at these two peoples, in two different places, with nothing in common except for the same heart. The heart that unreservedly gets connected by the indescribable feeling that these boy and girl don't even know has existed. Only the moon and the stars appear to understand...

She is still standing there, still smiling. There is something about love. You could never have the power to choose the one that you would want to love. It is a purely uncontrollable state of emotion. Love; you would never know when to fall in, and also when to fall out. There is a proverb that says “to love someone; is to let go. If he comes back, he is always yours. If he doesn’t, you’ll know that he never belongs to you, for real”. That is really a deep thought. But how would you be ready to let go, when you know deep inside you would never have the guts to give in?
The rain is falling like the cry of a maiden. It weeps slowly and the air is so tense. Yet it never fails to stop a guy and a girl from embracing the joy of the night. “Don’t forget your umbrella, you’ll get headache” he reminds her while locking up the car door. She feels so touched that he remembers the particular of her even after years they last met each other. The dinner has created a valuable piece of reminiscence. She knows that would not forget every single detail about it. Never ever. There in a village-style restaurant, she is sitting besides the guy that she loves. She always hates the yellow light from fluorescence lamps, yet tonight she ironically loves it. When he rests his arms on the back of her chair, she trembles over. “Thumps, thumps, thumps...” her heart is beating hard until she herself assertively sure that she can hear it and maybe she has made him hear it too. He serves her the dinner; he makes sure that she gets everything at the best. She feels so delightful for this is the first time someone really treats her like she is a princess. Everything seems so perfect. They afterwards are spending the time together looking at the dark night while sitting on the sandy beach. He stares into her big round eyes and quickly she shifts away her gaze into the opposite area.

“Why you’re so quiet tonight?”

“Maybe I’m exhausted”

“Oh okay… well, is there anything you would like to tell me?”

“Nothing.

“Nothing?”

“I just don’t know what to say…”

“What do you mean by you don’t know what to say?? We’ve been waiting for two years for this moment; the moment that finally we meet each other again. And all you could tell me is that you don’t know what to say!”

The changes in his tone and facial expression make her feel uncomfortable. She tries her best to gather the words together, to let him know how much she loves him but she fails. Instead of blurting the ‘I LOVE YOU’ words, she just keeps silent. She can see his devastation when she pretends not to understand what he meant. The gaze of his eyes shows the agony that torments her heart. The rain starts to cry out loud, as in her heart deep within. She really wants to hug him and screams on how much she loves him. Nevertheless, she could not bring herself to express her feeling because along with the confession is the reminder of her best friend’s affection towards him, too. Towards that particular person that she loves so much. She couldn’t afford to break a friend’s heart; so she decides to break her own.

On the very next day, the sun sets in a pale yellow colour. There is no bird flying freely in the sky. When he sends her off to the crowded bus terminal, he immediately walks away and never looks back. She could feel the tears running out slowly from the corner of her eyes, knowing the fact that the day would be their last goodbye. “I love you, good bye…” she could only whisper those words in her heart…

The feeling of losing someone is measured as having the same significant-impact with the feeling of loving someone. Losing the one that we love for all time will also bring along an awful pain. It stings hard. The pain spreads like the unbearable hidden disease that aches inside with no remedial solution. Anyway, “Time will heal the pain”, wouldn’t it? If that so, then why do people still believe that “absence will make heart grows fonder”?

That young lady has stood there long enough. She is now at the same exact bus terminal when she whispered her last goodbye to him; the person that she really loves with all her heart. The memory of 10 years ago is playing smoothly like a video recording in her mind. That was the last time she heard from him. How fast time flies. A man figure walks steadily towards her, the figure of a man that she calls her husband. “Have a nice journey, sweetheart. I’ll be missing you”, he says after he kisses her forehead. She smiles genuinely as she looks at his face, she is really certain that she loves him. “I love you, good bye…” she utters loudly to him as she boards into the bus, and once again she also whispers those words, to the other guy that has held her heart…

California King Bed.

2011-07-25T21:53:00.007+08:00

mentari petang melakar rona jingga kemerahan di dinding langit.

angin menghembus lembut serasakan tersekat-sekat dek menahan rasa hampa yang mendalam.

apakah erti cinta itu sentiasa menyakitkan?

gadis berkurung kapas rona hijau lembut itu bersoal sendiri. dia terus memandang susuk tubuh di hadapan. susuk tubuh yang dahulu pernah sangat dia kenal tapi kini seperti asing. lelaki yang hanya memandangnya dengan pandangan kosong. telus entah ke mana.

mana hilangnya lelaki yang pantas mengukir senyuman tatkala dia berada bertentangan? mana hilangnya pandangan hangat penuh rindu yang marak membara seperti panasnya mentari?

"ada apa nak jumpa?" nada Imran yang mendatar diiringi pandangan yang sejauh mungkin tak mahu memandang dia.

"kenapa Ita susah sangat nak jumpa dengan Im sekarang? Im selalu sangat habiskan masa dengan kawan-kawan..Im kan masih ada Ita, Im tahu kan Ita sentiasa harap Im dapat menghabiskan masa dengan Ita..." panjang lebar si gadis menyatakan hasrat. penuh hati-hati dengan harapan si dia akan memahami.

"Im nak buat apa pun, itu Im punya hal. Im tak suruh pun Ita tunggu Im. Ita ni kekasih Im saja, tak payah sibuk nak ambil tahu hal Im.!" suara yang tadinya mendatar mula meninggi dengan dihiasi renungan tajam kepada gadis itu.

gaids itu terkaku seketika. seperti dunia berhenti mengorbit dan zarah debu pegun tak mampu terbang di dalam ruang vakum.

luluh hati meraung sendirian di dalam mendengar kata berbisa daripada insan yang dicintai. hilang sudah lelaki yang dengan pandangan penuh rasa kasih memberi keyakinan takkan mungkin menyakiti hati dan perasaannya.

yang tinggal hanyalah sesusuk tubuh berwajah Imran, tapi yang tidak dikenali jiwanya.

adakah serendah itu nilai seorang Juwita di mata seorang Imran?

langit terus melakar rasa sendu yang semakin kelam. butir manik halus mengalir ganas tanpa henti di kelopak mata bundar milik si gadis. hati tak sanggup menanggung rawan sayu terkenang memori bersama. sekejap tersenyum, sekejap menangis. setapak melangkah pergi mengutip sisa hati yang remuk berkeping-keping.

adakah dengan perginya dia, bermakna Imran lebih bahagia?

"kenapa orang yang kita sayang itulah paling susah untuk disayang?"

- siti khadijah.

Amy Winehouse is found dead.

2011-07-24T13:45:00.004+08:00

Amy winehouse is found dead. At the age of 27 year old.
Life-period is too relative. For somebody, he has 72 years to live. While for another, he has 27 years to live.
What if you have only few years to live?
What are the meaningful something you have in life so far?

P.s.
I love "you know that im no good" and "back to black".

Never too far.

2011-07-23T15:29:00.005+08:00

Mencintai tidak semestinya memiliki..
Asal tahu dia tertawa, dia bahagia.. itu sudah cukup.
Cuma kadangkala mengharapkan di sebalik senyuman itu,
dia pernah (walau sekelumit...) merindukan aku.

2011-07-22T13:12:00.001+08:00

menanam sugar cane di pinggir bibir.

2011-07-20T21:12:00.000+08:00

You look in my eyes

And I get emotional inside

I know it's crazy

But you still can touch my heart

And after all this time

You'd think that I

I wouldn't feel the same

But time melts into nothing

And nothing's changed

I still believe

Someday you and me

Will find ourselves in love again

I had a dreamSomeday you and me

Will find ourselves in love again

Each day of my life

I'm filled with all the joy I could find

You know that II'm not the desperate type

If there's one spark of hope

Left in my grasp

I'll hold it with both hands

It's worth the risk of burning

To have a second chance

No, no, no, no, no, no I need you baby

I still believe that we can be together

If we believe that true love never has to end

Then we must know that we will love again.

about forgiving.

2011-07-19T14:36:00.003+08:00

Forgiving someone doesn't mean forgetting what they did,

it simply means letting go of the hurt.

and most importantly,

Forgiving someone doesn't mean that you also give them a second chance to enter your life.

it simply means, that.

2011-07-12T15:55:00.007+08:00

bila kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai,

kamu harus menyukai apa yang kamu miliki.

sebab apa yang kamu anggap kurang pada sesuatu yang kamu miliki,

boleh bererti lebih bagi orang lain yang menginginkan sesuatu seperti milikmu.

sudah menjadi hukum alam bahawa manusia tidak pernah puas atas apa yang dimilikinya.

mereka selalu ingin memiliki lebih dari apa yang sudah mereka miliki.

janganlah selalu mendongak ke atas dan melihat hal-hal yang indah.

sekali sekala, lihatlah ke bawah dan kamu akan melihat hal-hal yang jauh lebih baik menurut pandanganmu.

pada saat itu, kamu akan sedar bahawa apa yang kamu miliki merupakan sesuatu yang sangat berharga yang mungkin dulunya juga pernah kamu impikan.

maka dari itu, bersyukurlah kerana kamu masih memiliki sesuatu yang lebih daripada orang lain yang masih mendambakan sesuatu seperti milikmu.

-- Kahlil Gibran --

shit happens.

2011-07-04T21:39:00.006+08:00

i don't hate people.

the worst case, i was really really really don't like somebody/anybody.

but today i hate you.

i hate you.

2011-06-26T23:49:00.002+08:00

ahmad..
hai ahmad.

:)

Obsessed!

2011-06-03T23:03:00.004+08:00

i just watched this movie on HBO.

once again, im writing about this movie after my previous entry about this in 2009.

still, memang layan sangatt tengok movie ni. seronok dekat part beyonce hentam ali larter. haa that's what you're going to get if you're obsessed with somebody's husband.

masa tengok ni dah fikir, selepas 2 tahun adakah akan masih ada opinion yang sama pasal movie ni. yela konon bila da ~~tua~~ ehemm matured mungkin ada yang berubah, kan.

anyway setelah movie tamat saya dapati [macam eksperimen pulak..] pendapat saya masih lebih kurang sama dengan yang lepas.

lelaki perlu hati-hati bila bercakap dengan perempuan. jangan mulut manis sangat, semut mati sebab gula, tahu??
jangan bagi pernyataan-pernyataan yang semacam boleh bagi makna lain atas reason being polite atau bergurau. sesetengah perempuan boleh faham you just being nice. the rest, mungkin seperti Lisa Sheridan 'aka' Ali Larter.
"what he/she doesn't know wouldn't hurt him/her" is still inapplicable, unless anda/orang lain/persekitaran pandai simpan rahsia sampai mati.
perempuan perlu have faith more and more dengan pasangan. jangan hukum pasangan anda atas sesuatu yang dia tak lakukan. have mercy..

and,

"if i was single, i'll definitely would choose u".

to ladies and gentlemen, jangan sesekali guna statement begini just for the sake of being polite. orang zaman sekarang ni bahaya, kang dia pegi langgar @ mandrem @ simbah asid dekat you punya current partner, haa siapa tahu? sebab you cakap kalau you single you akan pilih dia.

anyway main characters dalam cerita ni memang mantap-mantap.

once again, salute Ali Larter!! memang superb acting! memang psycho gila tak hengat. dah nak mati pun still psycho.

p.s. masih berpegang kepada closing statement dalam the previous entry. period.

Seth Tan.

2011-06-03T10:51:00.003+08:00

who are you?

sekali sebut macam setan pulak. haha.

sekarang semua orang tengah gilakan drama Nora Elena. lepas tu ramai cakap lelaki macam Seth tak wujud dekat dunia ni. tapi husband Hidd cakap..

"Dan Adi pun semalam kata apa yang mustahilnya, memang semua orang akan buat macamtu kalau dalam situasi Seth. Bini kot, bukan girlfriend. Kalau girlfriend, pergilah jahanam. Haha"

saya setuju dengan husband Hidd. memanglah perlu pertahan isteri, [besides family] lebih dari segala perempuan yang ada atau pernah ada.

jangan jadi masa bercinta lautan api sanggup redah, tapi bila dah 3,4 tahun kahwin bila berjalan dengan bini pun tinggal2 je di belakang.

kalau nak cerita Seth ni macam mana, saya kurang pasti kerana saya tengok drama ni pun culas-culas camtu sebab selalu time tu anak sedara sibuk nak tengok upin ipin dengan ape lagi tah dekat astro ceria.

takpe. sebab drama Nora Elena ni berdasarkan novel Kasih Yang Suci - Meen Zulaikha. dengar cerita novel ni pun sold out di pasaran. tu dia. hebat sangat ni.? saya akan cari, beli dan bacanya dan lepas tu baru boleh bagi komen tentang Seth.

rasanya pertama kali nak beli novel melayu, selain novel Cinta Geografi yang saya hadiahkan pada najib. saya memang baca novel melayu cuma saya tak pernah beli. selalunya hanya pinjam, atau sewa dari kedai buku.

saya bertanya seseorang "Seth ni lebih bagus dari Adam from Adamaya ke?"

tapi rasanya saya perlu dapatkan jawapan tu sendiri.

mungkin siapa yang sentiasa menonton drama nora elena boleh bagi pendapat. :)

nota: macam biasa perempuan memang tertarik dengan kisah lelaki sebagai suami yang wujud seperti anugerah dari tuhan kepada isteri,,, seperti mana lelaki mengaku menangis bila tengok movie the Notebook. [the notebook: cerita berkisar pengorbanan seorang lelaki terhadap perempuan yang dicintai yang juga seorang isteri.]

Beautiful mistake.

2011-06-02T12:22:00.002+08:00

MasyaAllah..

2011-05-27T11:00:00.006+08:00

“Maha suci Allah yang menjadikan kejadian semua berpasangan dari sesuatu yang tumbuh di bumi, dari mereka (manusia) dan dari sesuatu yang mereka tiada mengetahui.”

(Yaasin: 36)

“Di antara tanda-tanda kebesaran-Nya ia menjadikan untuk kamu pasangan dari jenis kamu sendiri untuk kamu tinggal tenteram di sampingnya dan dijadikan di antara kamu kasih sayang dan belas kasihan. Semuanya itu menjadi tanda-tanda bagi orang-orang yang berfikir. “

(ar-Ruum:21)

jangan kita leka apabila dalam kegembiraan, dan jangan kita semakin jauh dari tuhan apabila datang dugaan..

syaitan akan sentiasa cuba untuk menyesatkan, jangan pernah lupa kewujudan makhluk yang takkelihatan ni. mereka ni akan cuba menyesatkan dari segala macam cara. hati, akal, fikiran, tutur kata, perbuatan.

semoga kita sama-sama saling ingat mengingatkan. :')

Have a good weekend, lovelies!

of halal issue and acid splash.

2011-05-25T16:15:00.007+08:00

halal issue.

sekarang ni macam-macam makanan dan bahan makanan disyaki tak halal. dan jugak yang dah dibuktikan tak halal.

apa ni? selama ni tukang check status halal buat pejam mata je ke apa??

contohnya, secret recipe tak boleh makan? bagi tau terang-terang lah sama ada semuaaa kek, minuman etc.etc dekat situ tak boleh makan atau apa?

dan kopi kluang tak halal, bukan sebab kopi. tapi sebab butter yang ramai orang dok guna masak, yang diguna untuk goreng kopi tu. kalau macam ni, bukan setakat kopi, tapi kek yang orang buat di rumah pun boleh jadi masuk dalam issue ni. faham?? jadi sila terang biar jelasss.

acid splash.

random acid splash. saja, suka-suka.

THIS IS HORRIFYING.!

enough said.

you know what,

i don't really give a damn siapa gay, siapa kena sodomized,

atau siapa saja nak have sex and publish it.

don't.

care.

what i really want to know is when people can walk around safely

and not being worry of walking alone.

and when i can eat happily and eat 'clean' ,,

without extra additional unpleasant information later.

come on lahh..!!!!!!!!!

it still gives shiver every time i watch this.

2011-05-24T20:40:00.003+08:00

i super love this girl!

8 year old, but she dances like she has been dancing for ages.

2011-05-24T12:37:00.002+08:00

seratus hari mencari cinta.

rasa macam baru mula bercinta.

2011-05-23T16:04:00.001+08:00

boleh rasa macam baru mula-mula bercinta, bila dah bertahun-tahun bercinta.?

~~~

sebentar tadi saya melawat blog Elia jejari runcing, sapa tak kenal awek khairul fahmi. sekarang dah tunang khairul fahmi. ala semua peminat khairul fahmi dah tau, kan? heh.

saya tengok2 gambar sekitar majlis tunang diorg.

masa majlis resepsi kawan najib, (kapten bob & irien), saya dah tau pasal tema padang pasir ni sebab kakak elia ada sebut tentang itu. kebetulan erin kakak elia ni kawan baek wife bob, dan kebetulan jugak erin kawan mrsm mastura. salah sorang kawan rapat saya. sembang punya sembang baru tahu kita kawan orang yang sama. dunia ni kecik je pusing2 tang tu jugakk...

jadi memang tertarik nak tengok gambar diorang ni, sebab masa erin sebut tu saya tak boleh nak bayangkan macam mana attire dan juga setting tempat arabian style ni.

baca punya baca dekat bahagian akhir entry elia cakap nak keluar dengan fahmi pertama kali sebagai tunang, dia rasa nervous macam mula2 bercinta dulu je.

agaknya semua orang memang rasa macam ni ke.?

hee. terus teringat masa first time jumpa najib lepas bertunang. pergi jumpa dia dekat depan rumah. memang tiba2 jadi malu semacam.! mengada-ngada,kan. haha.

rasa macam nak senyum pun serba tak kena, nak cakap apa pun macam tak betul je.

sampaikan saya tak ajak pun dia masuk makan kat dalam rumah, rasanya ayah saya yang ajak. *_,*

tapi kami lagi rakus la lepas bertunang tak berapa jam dah sibuk nak keluar sana sini pegi beraya rumah kawan-kawan sampai tak ingat dunia. tunang saya pun tengah2 drive tiba2 tarikseat-belt dia cakap tengah darah manis ni kena hati-hati ni driving. hee. [sebenarnya setiap masa driving kena hati-hati, kan.. :p]

rasa macam baru mula bercinta tu,, adalah rasa keterujaan dan ecstasy apabila berdepan dengan orang yang kita sayang. pada masa yang sama perasaan malu tu masih banyak, malu sebab perasaan bahagia yang kita tak dapat sembunyi tu memang terlihat. memang nampak.

dan kita tahu, yang dia tahu. :')

rasa yang macam itu..

P.S. mungkin bila hari ijabkabul rasa tu akan jadi berkali ganda daripada yang ini. agak yakin. :)

Are you a trapped monkey?

2011-05-23T13:09:00.001+08:00

to trap lived monkeys, hunters in Africa fill a barrel with bananas and then cut a small hol at its side just big enough for the monkeys to put his hand and arm through.

when the monkey reaches into the barrel for the banana, he is conditioned not to release it.

if only the monkey would let go of the banana, he would be able to escape easily.

we can sometimes be like that too. when we hold on to the past or old mind-sets, we are actually falling into a trap that was designed to keep us from our best possible future.

agree? or disagree?

image : source

note: when i was a kid, a had a story book about the adventure of monkeys went to school. i felt like 'monkey' was kind a cute word. i chanted 'monkey, monkey, monkey..' weird like that.

Tentang hari guru, guru, dan murid.

2011-05-16T09:04:00.007+08:00

16th may. every year.

tahun lepas adalah tahun pertama sambut hari guru di sekolah sebagai seorang guru.

semoga itu bukan yang terakhir. saya masih punya keinginan untuk menjadi guru semula.

memang betul lah macam tanggapan selama ni, menyanyikan lagu keramat 'Guru Malaysia' memang menyebabkan meremang bulu roma. terasa betapa bertanggungjawabnya seorang guru tu dalam memastikan seseorang manusia tu jadi human, atau just another homo-sapiens.

sebagai bekas seorang pelajar, semua guru sedar betapa besar impak yang diberi kepada pelajar yang di didik.

tapi, bergantung kepada seorang guru untuk hanya mengajar, atau sepenuh hati mendidik.

cuba ingat-ingat balik,

berapa ramai guru dari masa tadika, sekolah rendah, sekolah menengah, matriks, kolej, universiti yang kita ingat.

fikir....

fikir.....

dah ingat dah??

okay sekarang cuba fikir, kenapa kita ingat pada cikgu tu. contohnya cikgu A & cikgu dotdotdot.

anda mungkin ingat pada cikgu A kerana cikgu A sangat lemah lembut, cikgu A selalu membantu walaupun anda sangat teruk dalam mengeja perkataan. sikap cikgu A membuatkan anda bersemangat untuk pergi ke sekolah walaupun selama ini anda takut diketawakan kawan-kawan.

manakala cikgu dotdotdot pula anda ingati kerana garang macam singa dan pernah denda anda tanpa alasan munasabah. dan buatkan anda meluat dia sangat-sangat dan meluat subjek yang diajar.

seorang guru anda ingati kerana perkara manis. manakala seorang lagi anda ingati kerana perkara pahit.

dan juga ada cikgu Xyz. siapa pulak cikgu Xyz ni?? cikgu yang ajar geografi tingkatan dua?? siapa ye? haa langsung anda lupa kerana kehadiran dia kurang memberi signifikan dalam hidup anda.

jadi nampak tak?

guru yang memberi impak & signifikan dalam hidup pelajar akan diingati sampai akhir hayat tidak kira impak negatif @ positif.

saya sendiri mempunyai pengalaman bersama guru-guru yang telah mempengaruhi hidup saya.

Cikgu Idah-- cikgu tadika yang puji saya 'bagus!' dan selalu bagi bintang bila berjaya sambung perkataan. sampai sekarang masih ingat perkataan pertama yg berjaya formed dalam hidup ialah ku+tu = kutu.

waktu tu rasa macam hebat betul! heh.

Cikgu Rosme-- cikgu English darjah satu. arwah sangat lemah lembut, dan beliau berjaya membuatkan saya rasa english tu bahasa yang sangat menarik, bersama lagu2 yang beliau selalu nyanyi dengan murid. suara dia sangat best. saya SUKA bahasa Inggeris kerana dia.

Cikgu Rahmatul Aida-- cikgu homeroom di mrsm. sangat ceria, sangat loving, sangat romantik hubby&wife dengan cikgu Baha, dua2 orang parents-teacher yang sangat takecare pd saya masa di mrsm. salah satu sebab takut nak berskandal di mrsm sebab cikgu Baha cakap, "Farie kalau saya dgr pasal kamu dengan sape2 siappp.. banyak sangat BWP yang kapel nihh.."

saya sangat admire mereka berdua in personal kerana banyak perbezaan tapi sangat complement each other.

dan rasa guilty so much i could die bila dapat result spm Add math teruk gila sebab tak tau apa perasaan cikgu aida sebab dia ajar add math. :(

Cikgu Jamilah-- cikgu yang tak pernah ajar saya secara formal tapi ada dalam hidup saya sejak belum lahir. disebabkan oleh beliau, saya dah lepak dalam makmal sains sejak dari dalam perut. beliau adalah mak yang tegas tapi seorang guru yang cool.

masa kecil saya tak sedar itu, tapi dari pemerhatian saya semenjak dewasa beliau tak pernah tunjukkan stress dengan kerja. beliau jarang sekali membicarakan hal kerja di rumah dan saya masih kagum dengan kegigihan beliau mendorong pelajar beliau berpuasa dengan memberikan rm10 jika berpuasa penuh. pelajar sekolah menengah. yang akhirnya akan ada sahaja yang tak berjaya tapi takkan menipu guru mereka. beliau tidak pernah merungut jika perlu mengajar kelas tercorot kerana saya tahu beliau suka mengajar. di kala kebanyakan guru berlumba-lumba untuk kenaikan pangkat, beliau lebih selesa menolak jawatan pengetua dengan sebab "mama tak minat."

beliau adalah contoh realiti kepada saya yang sebagai guru buat kerja dengan sepenuh hati walaupun hanya sekadar menjadi guru biasa. jangan mendidik cukup syarat sahaja.

ini adalah sebahagian guru yang memberi impak dalam hidup saya.

guru yang tak best semestinya ada,, tapi lagi bagus ingat yang best-best je kan.

kepada rakan-rakan yang telah meninggalkan profession perguruan, remember a proverb says..

"once a teacher, always a teacher.."

we still deserve to sing this song....

Selamat Hari Guru!

karangan penduduk kampung pisang.

2011-05-11T10:35:00.004+08:00

saya dengan ini ingin berterima kaseh kepada mastura rahim kerana sudi bersusah payah menolong saya mensetelkan perkara penting dalam misi mustahak saya. saya tahu beliau semestinya penat selepas kerja tapi beliau sanggup menolong saya tanpa rasa bosan.

kerana terlalu fokus dengan perkara ini kami berdua langsung tiada teringat untuk cam-whoring sedangkan selalunya kami akan konpem gila gamba terutamanya bersama makanan. he he he.

saya gembira & berterimakaseh mempunyai mastura sebagai kawan saya kerana dia selalu membantu sewaktu susah senang. semoga tahun ni masih sempat melakukan rutin tahunan berbuka puasa di village view ye babe.. :D

sebelum saya mengakhiri karangan saya, saya lampirkan di sini satu video kegemaran saya sewaktu belajar di tengganu dahulu. enjoiceeee....

creep.

2011-05-10T14:30:00.004+08:00

..but i'm a creep, i'm a weirdo... what the hell am i doing here?

i don't belong hereee

what ever makes you happy, what ever you want..

you're so f**king special, i wish i was special.....

2011-05-10T10:55:00.002+08:00

"Who cares about your first love kalau bukan dia yang jadi your last lover?"

haa.

book club: still pending.

2011-05-10T09:32:00.001+08:00

talking about reading, i have this kind of addiction, to buy a novel when i get my pay check.

however since i started working about a year ago, i hardly have that great leisure time to blissfully read the novels. whenever i wanted to read, that was the time i felt like i need some sleep.

my novels, they keeps pending to be finished right now.

these three. pending.

my novels they have been stacked up in my inlaw's house.. the remaining. heart-ache to think of those novels that had been washed away by flood in my home in hometown :(. sigh.

i have blogger friend who let go her novels due to incapability to bring along while moving in to a new house. so sayang...

thanks god books are unlike shoes/clothes. books never worn-out. :P

Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.

2011-05-10T09:11:00.003+08:00

"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort.

You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings.

And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it.

You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it."

— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

english education...

2011-05-09T15:19:00.006+08:00

as we're heading back home from family's healthy outing [which was memanjat tg. tuan. huhu] ... my darling and i we had a casual talk.

he said he kinda surprised with his own conversation in english. i said i knew all along that he was good. we used to converse in english and hardly in malay during our first second year of the relationship. remember.?

hee that's what i said to him.

he asked why we stopped. stopped from converse in fully english. i wasn't sure myself, but i guess we started to convert to malay since we met each other at home a lot more than outside.

i just thought it was better and more manner to converse in malay. i thought.

what happened lah.??

and now we will only use fully english when we get mad. and pick a fight.

he said.

haha.

i am lucky to have the other-half that is very supportive. english is not for communication, for me. english is my 'periuk nasi'. how am i going to earn for living if im not good at it?

im not a fluent speaker, english is not my mother tongue.

i'm not born listening to people around me talking in english.

so i need to keep practicing and improving myself. or else i might forget.

oh yes.. i'm good at forgetting words.

sometimes i feel dissatisfy when my darling utters some words that i don't understand.

i envy him for doesn't have to hold a degree in English yet he could impress me with some vocab that i don't know.

he learns and he applies.

That makes me feel proud of him as individual, as a person. and makes me feel lucky that he is mine.

for lot of times during campus life, bookshop was one of the compulsory place for us to go when we're out for dating. we're hungry for reading material.

euww macam apa je kan dating pegi kedai buku.?

but it seemed so right.

p.s. : i miss late mummy... talking about english reminded me of her. she loved to converse in english with me.

she was one of the person that will answer 'mohd najib, book, parfume' if you ask a survey on 'what will make farihan azizan feels excited?'

she did. she knew me quite well.

in thousand years, i still couldn't find a better mom-in-law than her. for these 5 years she treated me like her own.

someone who gave me love and home when i was far away from my family, without even a slight of hesitation...

2011-05-08T22:47:00.001+08:00

It's fun being a strong person, but it sucks when people know that you're strong enough and they think its okay to hurt you. ouch.

it still hurts.

so which one are you.?

2011-05-04T14:08:00.004+08:00

“Time is...

too slow for those who wait,

too swift for those who fear,

too long for those who grieve,

too short for those who rejoice,

but for those who love,

time is eternity.”

-- henry van dyke

Congratulation Kapt.Borhanudin & Pn.Iriena... :)

2011-04-26T10:30:00.003+08:00

bob ayu.. haha

mak andam nak share abg baju kotak2 dengan i.

hee.. no no no. :p

brothers...

kapt. khairy. sy kongsi abg baju kotak2 dengan dia. heee..

before solemnization..

the journey... ~

the journey. [sneak peek]

2011-04-26T10:15:00.000+08:00

@ kampung.

pagi2 main dengan ayam. ayam zaman sekarang lek2 je orang pegang.

batu melintang, jeli. very nice...

early morning at tasik banding, perak. cantik...

and tak nampak macam tak mandi pun..?

huhehehehe..

the sunrise at tasik banding...

it was better tapi setakat guna camera hp nokia ni camni ajela hasilnye..huhu...

the journey.

2011-04-26T09:09:00.003+08:00

the journey. entry kalau bertajuk the journey ni selalunya berkaitan dengan ke pantai timur. yang ni pun tak terkecuali, cumanya kali ini titik permulaan the journey bersama new partner-in-crime. first time balik dua orang saja. not bad... boleh suka hati nak berhenti ke tak nak ke, nak makan ke, nak drive thru ke, nak tiba-tiba topup touch n go tengah2 high way ke...

conclusion pertama: seronok.!

journey kali ni adalah untuk attend wedding located in Jeli. wedding kapten bob.. lelaki kesayangan tunang i, dengan miss Iriena yang sekarang dah puan Iriena. :)

first time bertolak malam yang betol2 tengah malam.. pukul 12 tuh... sebab Jeli so kena ikut lebuhraya timur barat. tunang i ni sedikit seperti bear di mana dia akan mengantuk secara cepatnya dan membuatkan nak tak nak i terpaksa drive. bayangkan drive in real midnight.. the only car on the road siap jalan berkabus yang membuatkan i dok terbayang2 cerita 'Sini ada Hantu'. +_+

kejutkan najib sebab takut, i cakap pada dia 'bangunla takotla jalan ni takde kereta.' tapi beliau sambil tido cakap "takde kereta okay la.. takpe ni i kan adee...."

ceh. memang co-pilot yang tak membantu.

at one point i memang da tak boleh go on dah terus suruh najib drive. actually kesian pd dia sebab i know he was so tired but what to do...

korang pernah tengok cerita Sini ada Hantu?? haaa...

bila sampai area gerik, terteleng-teleng kepala ni tak nak tengok sebelah kiri sebab dah tau ade one area tu ade kawasan jirat cina yang besar amat... hu hu hu.

sampai kawasan RNR gerik je da pukul 4am lebih..so rest kejap bagi masa najib tido sambil tunggu waktu subuh. [ala i tau dia pon tak berani drive lebuhraya timur barat tu malam2...kannn]

yang seronoknya dengan journey together adalah boleh berhenti sesuka hati seperti di tengah-tengah jambatan tasik banding semata2 nak snap gambar. lepas tu berhenti area tasik camwhoring sedikit sebanyak padahal dua2 tak mandi lagi. tapi bila tengok gambar tak nampak pulak macam tak mandi so kira okay la tu.. hahaha.

sampai je di Jeli terus direct ke Masjid tempat akad nikah dan bersiap2 di situ. memang hobo habisla traveling kali ni.

the ceremony was very nice... both pengantin were full of delight and happiness... being beside the bride masa solemnization, tak boleh nak bayangkan betapa berdebarnya dia masa tunggu lafaz akad. baru tengok ijabkabul orang je dah rasa berdebar,, yang diri sndiri nati macam mana tu.? fuhh...

masa preparation for reception kami men-divide-kan diri, najib pergi uruskan bridegroom and sword barrel, while i stayed with the bride and the friends. sedap gak la lepak dengan 'mak' andam nye.. i missed being loud and involved with conversation like that. harus pulak dok men sajes abang2 askar kann... frust mak andam tak dapat takel abg askar i..haha.. :p

despite the hot weather, the sword barrel ceremony ran well.. muka bob hepy habes laa, kawan2 rapat dapat attend wedding.

the funny thing was, instead of talking about the bride and groom, pakcik deejay tu asek say thanks kepada kapten najib sebagai orang kuat yang menguruskan majlis. siap remark lagi tuh kapten najib ni single lagi kot2 sape berkenan. cis konfiden gila pakcik ni. sebab i tak cling dengan najib so tak nampak macam we're here together i guess. kawan2 najib dah pakat pandang i ble pakcik deejay cakap gitu. takpe2 farihan... cool2...

banyak kali pulak dok cakap pasal najib nye sampai i pun dah konpius nih awat pakcik ni berkenan nak wat menantu ke apa. tiap kali tu jugak dok promote najib. aik??

mata i da memboolat dah pandang najib sampai dia pun stress. hehehe.

lepas tu masa makan beradat agaknya pakcik deejay perasan i was beside him, kesayangan i pulak dok memastikan tunang dia yg anggun ni makan dengan cukup lepas tu dengan secara tiba2 pakcik deejay wat announcement pembetulan mengenai kapten najib. ye dia tidak single ye dah berpunya siap mintak maaf lagi tu kot i terasa. i yg anggun ni rasa macam nak sorok muka bawah meja..malu gilaaaa wehhh...

aikk wedding sape ni?? kesian pengantin, ktorg lak yg interfrem. huhuhu.

i was so glad attending in the ceremony.

i met and socialized with new people, they were all very nice. kenal2 kawan bride jugak, one of them was khairul fahmi che mat's future s-i-l, which happened to be my friend Mastura punya buddy. what a small world.. patot muka familiar. then bergosip2 pasal makeup dengan mak2 andam, had good time with najib's friends and makan dengan banyaknyaa.!!

sometimes life can be so surprising.. strangers could become friends as simple as that.

dah petang baru gerak balik pasir puteh... kali ni giliran sdara2 pulak terkejut sebab tiba2 je ada depan mata macam negeri sembilan tu dekat KB je. hee.

hmm selalu melawat kampung dengan arwah mum, sekarang we're all by ourselves.

dulu manja sangat asek nak ikot mummy je pegi mana2, nak tido dekat rumah kak da or rumah mek pun mesti nak ikut mum.

hmm.

but its okay... she trusted with with her son. she took a good care of me. and i will do, to her son.

all these times, all the journey were always mum and me.

i might not have a mother in law later. but i had always had her, loved me like her own for so long.

the times we had spent together, tak ternilai.

akhirnya faham kenapa selama ni selalu dengan mum, dari zaman belajar sampai kerja pun dekat dengan mum.. this is because God gave me the chance to know who was my mother in law personally...

the blessing in disguise...

i love this journey.

new partner-in-crime, i guess we're a good team. :')

senyum, tak perlu kata apa-apa.. :')

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senyum..~

Across one universe, nine planets, hundreds countries, thousands islands, and seven seas..

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there are more than six billion people in the world.
six billion people.
of those, there is at least one for you.
maybe you'll meet in a quaint, little coffee shop.
or you favorite old bookstore.
no matter what, there is someone out there looking for you..
just like you are looking for them.

for those looking,

all the best for you.

years ago, i had already met mine.

he is 'the one'. :)

thing that keeps me preoccupied lately.

2011-04-19T10:20:00.002+08:00

my parcel had arrived weeks ago. i've been looking forward for it. :)

finally i have it all seasons!

daniel [the nephew] da seminggu dok practice signature sebab chik an cakap nanti posmen datang hantar barang kena sign ni... daniel kena sign..

ambil paper form ayah su lepas tu cakap "daniel nak ikut sign ayah su." laa.

tapi tiba2 bila posmen datang, posmen cakap daniel tak boleh sign sebab sekolah rendah. tetttt.

lepas tu asyik telefon ni chik an dekat mana dah ni bila nak sampai daniel nak bukak ni bule tak.??

aduyaiii... sape pulak yang lagi excited ni...

okay mari sambung tengok dvd.......... :D

start and end your day with a smile. :')

2011-04-18T15:47:00.004+08:00

each day is a precious gift.

take time to unwrap every one of it.

Beauty pageant with a gender twist.

2011-04-13T20:38:00.004+08:00

susulan dari video clip Miss Malaysia Pahang 2010

one thing only that i would like to comment. -- physical feature.

height... fine i don't mind if you top me there.

but body figure .. 32-25-38.. how he keeps it???

i couldn't remember when was the last time i measure my waist as 25.

and their bust, from nothing to something okayy..

ini semua lelaki, tapi measurement lagi meletops dari aku. sentapppp....!!!

sentapp gilaa....

lelaki lagi pandai jaga figure dari perempuan, huii aku memang terasa nihh...

*sejak masuk ke fasa ala2 lewat 20an ni cepat benar nak sentap nye. rasa macam nak sentiasa dalam era awal 20an. sobs3x..*

bab lain pasal this beauty pageant, i no comment.

“Al-ghayah la tubarriru wasilah (matlamat tidak menghalalkan cara),”

Halo.

2011-04-13T20:25:00.001+08:00

i swear i never fall again,

but this doesn't even feel like falling...

How birth order affects your love life.

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source -- by Lisa Lombardi on match.com on yahoo.

If you’re an oldest child...

It’s no coincidence that most U.S. Presidents were first-borns, because this is the sign of natural leaders. You’re a take-charge person, so not the type to drive friends and romantic partners crazy asking questions like, “I dunno where we should eat; where do you want to go?” Instead, you’ll make sure you have reservations — and land a prime table, too. And anyone lucky enough to pair up with you won’t spend weeknights wondering whether he or she has Saturday night plans, because “oldest kids are planners,” says Dr. Leman. You’re also old-fashioned (in a good way). You always come through on anniversaries and Valentine’s Day.

Your love challenge: Being more spontaneous. First-borns aren’t the “seize the day” sort (you’re not one to text your sweetie to suggest meeting at this fun café you just walked past). Likewise, “you hate surprises,” Dr. Leman warns. Pity the fool who springs meeting the parents on you or when you thought it was just the two of you going out tonight!
Best match: The youngest child. “It’s a case of opposites attracting,” says Dr. Leman. “You help the last-born be more organized, and the last-born helps you lighten up.”

If you’re a middle child...

Contrary to their reputation as insecure messes (example: Jan Brady), middle kids actually make stable and loyal partners. “One thing you’re not is spoiled,” Dr. Leman says. You probably grew up feeling like you got less attention than your siblings, and that drives you to work for every perk — including a happy relationship. Also in the “positives” category: You’re “a compromiser and negotiator,” Dr. Leman notes, so you’ll give your partner plenty of say in everything from how quickly your relationship progresses to where you go on vacation together. And your romance should be free of daily petty squabbles (middles hate conflict); instead, you try to put others at ease.

Your love challenge: Opening up. Have you ever been told you’re hard to read? “Middle children can be very secretive,” says Dr. Leman. “They got hammered by the first-born and swindled by the baby, so they keep their cards close to their chests.” You’re also not the best communicator when you’re upset. But if you learn to speak up instead of holding your anger in, you’ll have a more harmonious relationship.
Best match: Youngest child. “Middles aren’t as threatened by last-borns as they are by exacting first-borns,” says Dr. Leman, so the odds are good for open communication.

If you’re a youngest child...

You’re all about fun. The most outgoing of all in the birth order spectrum, youngest children live to have a good time (it may be because your parents were more laid-back by the time you came along). On a typical first date you’ll have your date laughing so hard that water shoots out his or her nose. In fact, “most famous comedians are youngest children,” says Dr. Leman. A partial list of famous examples: Jon Stewart, Jim Carrey, Ellen DeGeneres, Steve Martin and Eddie Murphy. And forget ho-hum plans like dinner and a movie; you love to do the unexpected, often on the spur of the moment. You’re the type to take someone to a party only to whisper, “Let’s get out of here” two minutes later... and then convince your date to take a road trip to Atlantic City or Vegas for the weekend.

Your love challenge: “Babies are the least financially dependable,” warns Dr. Leman (it comes from being, well, taken care of all your life). That means your date may be stuck picking up the tab when your credit card is maxed out. Also, some youngest children — not you, of course! — use that last-born charm and charisma to be a bit, ahem, manipulative, says Dr. Leman. That breed of baby will leave a date and sneak off to hit golf balls with pals or something similar, leaving the other person wondering what happened.
Best match: Either the oldest child (they serve as a good counterbalance in a parent-child sort of way) or middle child (they value friendships, so they totally understand why you love being the life of the party).

If you’re an only child...

You’re a rock-solid citizen — and a sweetie. “Only children are super-reliable,” Dr. Leman says. “They’re like oldest children taken to the extreme.” Growing up with only adults made you into a little grown-up early on — meaning you’re serious and dependable. You’re the rare person who will stay up half the night helping a friend or partner prep for a licensing exam or a big work presentation. You’re the type to move your partner’s car so he or she doesn’t get a ticket. Punctual and true to your word, onlies like you never leave a loved one waiting for a call or email. And you’re articulate, too, so your date can expect great conversations that really make a person think.
Your love challenge: Admit it — you’re a bit of a perfectionist. Maybe you send back steaks that aren’t cooked just so or point out a teeny-tiny stain on your date’s sweater. Also, you’re so cautious and pragmatic that you can be very slow to act (i.e., someone else has to make the first move).
Best match: Youngest child, because you balance each other out. The baby of the family adds spontaneity and romance, while you make sure you two aren’t dining by candlelight because the electric bill never got paid.

Lisa Lombardi has written for Marie Claire, Cosmopolitan, Shape and other publications. A classic middle child, she is happy to have picked a fun-loving last-born mate.

“and we're the case of opposites attracting”

‎"Miles mean nothing when you are in love,

2011-04-11T01:29:00.000+08:00

and love means everything when you are miles apart..."

rescue 911.!

2011-04-11T00:37:00.005+08:00

semalam hantar cik aza pegi royale bintang as mess night's partner for kawan buah hati pengarang jantung. last minute punye request mujur la kawan i sorang ni type yang tak banyak kerenah.

sampai depan rumah aza hee i suruh dia honk saje tapi i kena marah buah hati cakap ape nih honk2 je pegi turun lah jemput. fuh fuh automatik i turun padahal selalu nak ajak aza lepak bila sampai depan rumah dia main honk je pastu zass bergerak.

i sebenarnya kagum nih sebab aza berani hoh pergi, kamikaze je tak kenal pun orang tu sape. buah hati kesayangan pun bagi briefing sikit pada aza tapi i pulak yang rasa nervous.

i pesan pada aza, kalau ada ape-ape mesej lahh.. tapi kecintaan i tu cakap 'aza kalau ape-ape call cik an'. hu-hu.

lepas tu baru je nak melangkah tengok cite Cun dia suruh mesej tanya okay ke tak. lepas i tengok dia update pulak dengan kawan dia. i fikir-fikir aza agak-agak boleh bertahan ke tak, boleh sesuaikan diri ke tak.. rasa malam tu i dengan najib; kita berdua macam mak bapak yang baru lepaskan anak nya pergi prom night.

anxious....

agaknya kalau anak sendiri mau contact setengah jam sekali. *eii tak cool nya kalau ada parents macam nihh..hahaha*

p.s. masa dia tengah explain pada aza, saje je nak tease dia, i cakap hee kalau ada dancing2 pakai dress cam meletops gitu i nak lahhhh.. lepas tu dia pandang i dengan muka macam kene minum akar kayu..and cakap-- 'gedik.!' wahahaha amek kau padan muka.! itu kira dah annoyed la tu, bengang jugak kalau dapat tunang mengada-ngada macam i ni, tau.?

well i suka jugak tease dia ni sebenarnya. kekeke~~

the invisible steps...

2011-04-11T00:06:00.001+08:00

2008 - 2011. selamat ulangtahun..

2011-04-08T20:57:00.006+08:00

hello. rasanya lama jugak i tak mengarang apa-apa di sini. cuma setakat kongsi quick entry bila baca mana-mana quote yang i rasa best, yang i rasa maybe sepuluh tahun lagi kalau nak guna ayat tu dah tak risau sebab bole godek-godek cari dalam blog.

atau pun jugak sebagai tempat tribute entry pada orang kesayanganss i, bagi mengelakkan i jammed kan inbox mereka dengan mesej yang panjang berjela. tehehe.

asal wujud blog ini dulu adalah untuk kepada seorang saja. sebab tak banyak masa boleh spend bersama jadi tulis di sini lah supaya benda yang tak sempat cerita beliau dapat update dari sini.

dan juga lepas tu share perasaan dengan entry bunga-bunga, sesuai dengan zaman sebagai from a girl to a lady.

sekarang ni bila dah kerja banyak jugak nak cerita tapi asyik bertangguh last-last tak tulis apa-apa. dah kerja haruslah nampak macam pekerja yang berdedikasi 'aka' sibuk bekerja. tak gitu? :p

rupanya ada jugak kekawan buah hati pengarang jantung yang singgah d sini. hee malu i... bila i ulangkaji balik entry2 lama rasa macam oi farihan you nih lovey dovey nye lempang kangg. hu-hu.

this blog, it started on march 2008. so now belog ini dah 3 tahun umurnya.

dari belajar, sekarang dah kerja.

dari berkapel, sekarang dah bertunang.

dari bercinta, sekarang makin cinta.

lepas tu?

three.

soalan-soalan lazim ketika ini,,

dah mengikat janji, bila nak mengijabkabul? macam mana persiapan?

hmm. itu perkara sangat peribadi yang i sangat tak gemar nak discuss atau share kan.. mengenai private event hanya i, dia & family je patut tahu.

sama seperti waktu merisik, & waktu bertunang.. i selesa berkongsi makluman selepas majlis selesai. buah hati pernah kata kita bukan artis nak kena open-up personal life. betul.

tapi nya i ada juga experience seorang kawan baik dah melenting sebab last year sehari sebelum engagement baru i mesej dia "babe esok aku engage." --yea ringkas, tepat dan jitu.

dia marah sangat sebab semacam tiba-tiba, duh sebenarnya dah lama pun prepare semua cuma tak pernah cerita apa-apa.

jadinya dapat moral value, next time around bila nak kahwin kena bagitau orang-orang kesayangan seminggu sebelum majlis lah. awal sikit. :D

well itu i punya style.

lain orang, lain pulak cara pemikirannya.

macam biasa, masing-masing ada pendapat sendiri jadi mari kita sama-sama hormat antara satu sama lain. okay.? :')

and to my dear blog,

you are now officially 3 year old.! *teary eyes..*

and never a day that i love you less... <3

You Know You are a Military's Soulmate When:

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You tell people that ask that he's 'only' been gone a month.

You want to roll your eyes when you hear someone says, "I havent seen my boyfriend in a week!!"

someone like you.

2011-04-07T20:51:00.006+08:00

i want to be happy for you, but i just couldn't.

i keep asking myself why.?

i wish you knew how much pain you'd caused me

but obviously you're just to blind to see.

and i wish nothing but the best for you too.

-- victoria.

can't you just make my life easier?

2011-04-06T16:12:00.003+08:00

pfffftttttttt!!!!!!!!!!

i ABHORE microsoft excel!! :(

and i just can't punch my laptop. duh.

Best way to know your partner.

2011-04-03T23:02:00.002+08:00

The best way to know a woman is to be with her when you're poor.

and the best way to know a man is to be with him when he is rich.

selamat tinggal.

2011-03-29T10:48:00.002+08:00

i want you to lead a good life...

lead a good life. for me.

for us.

sometimes it's not about being pessimistic,

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but it is because,

"Once bitten, twice shy".

Be careful who you open up to.

Only a few people actually care, the rest are just curious.

The military might have him, but I have his heart.

2011-03-27T19:32:00.004+08:00

If you think being a soldier is tough,

you should try loving one.

If you think soldiers are strong,

you should look at their girls.

Need a reason to buy a new fragrance?

2011-03-27T18:12:00.006+08:00

''Long after one has forgotten what a woman wore, the memory of her perfume lingers''.

--Christian Dior

Need another reason to buy a new fragrance??

''When all the laces are undone, when all the petticoats have fallen,
the woman is dressed only in her perfume''.

-- Jean-Paul Guerlain quoting Pierre Louys

Believe + Lie

2011-03-25T13:12:00.001+08:00

when the lie is too often, it's hard for you to retain on believing the words. lie and truth stay side by side with a thin line. the doubt will always occur on what to believe. for you scare that the words that at first looks like true will turn out to be ......... you-know-what.
when you say ''fine, i don't care''.. you know that you really do. really do. and when you finally admit to yourself that you do care, you'll then console yourself and say..
"it's okay.."

it's okay ... :)

2011-03-22T00:23:00.001+08:00

There's always a little truth behind every

"just kidding"

A little knowledge behind every
"I don't know"

A little emotion behind every
"I don't care"

...and a little pain behind every
"it's okay :) ."

tribute to my darling girl & her husband...

2011-03-21T20:38:00.003+08:00

dearest...

i feel bad that i couldn't make it to your big day.. and i know 'sorry' it just not enough.

i still remember we grew from not knowing what the future will bring. i still remember the moments we spent at the end of the building, singing My heart will go on and all those siti nurhaliza's songs. such a big fan we were, right?

schooltime seemed so good having you by my side. and taman aman seemed so near. LOL!

i still remember we said we're going to be best friend forever!

;)

long ago, i used to be anxious what if you fall to somebody that doesn't deserve you. if you're hurt, i'll be hurt too.

and alhamdulillah, you meet the one. he deserves you. he is your smile. and i cant stop smiling when i look at the happiness in both of you.

seriously dear, such an affectionate post-wedding moment with pure happiness... :) :)

congratulation once again darling... i love you...

notakaki: en.firdaus jaga girlfriend saya baek-baek,, kalau buat dia sedih siap laaaaaaaaa....

similarities in between 'heartbeat' and 'my heart skips a beat.'?

2011-03-17T12:17:00.002+08:00

it's the heart.
it beats.
beatinggggggg....

hati ada di jantung.

talking about procrastination--> i'm good at it.

2011-03-14T12:13:00.002+08:00

especially number 6.

ermm.

source

tarzan & jane.

2011-01-23T00:00:00.004+08:00

hati-hati okay, bekerja baek-baek..

pulang cepat-cepat..tau?..

saya tunggu.. :)

"there always a place in me that you can call home."

we're the perfect two.

2011-01-20T00:27:00.003+08:00

.. me and you.

So close, yet so far away.

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darling fiance's simply lovable flower.

my morning greeting.

i am doing okay here, love. just missing the music of my ear, and the rhythm of my heart. :)
so go, fight and win.! i'll be here for you.
there is always an empty seat beside me with your name on it.

a bucket of happiness for my dearest Mariam!

2011-01-16T19:24:00.005+08:00

-- first sem in uni. --

i ada seorang kawan dekat universiti yang i rapat. mula-mula kenal dia because she's in relation with close male buddy. bila mereka broke-off, gradually i got closer with the girl instead of the boy.
we don't really stay sit together in class but we do always keep in touch.
the thing that i like with our relationship is, we never get too much into each other's business. i don't need to know everywhere you had been, and we don't question our action.
this is one of the person yg dia tak terasa kalau i baik2 dengan sesiapa dan i tak kesah kalau dia closer dengan siapa juga.
dan for few times kita ketawa cerita pasal orang bertanya sama ada ktrog ada masalah atau bergaduh sebab tak nampak kita duduk bersama, or bercakap.. for quite long dalam lecture hall.
selalunya kita akan compare berapa orang tanya awak dan berapa org tanya saya.
lepas tu senyum sambil makan. kita berdua memang suka makan. kita akan makan je sesuatu yang sedap walaupun rasa macam mahal. jadi selalu diskus2 dekat tempat makan. [atau pun shopping.]
well... hobi bersama yang agak obvious adalah = makan, shopping & movie.

sampai pernah buah hati pengarang jantung subsitute himself dengan mariam to go and watch movie with me. sebab he couldn't be with me. hmmph.

kita bdua selalu je lepas keluar kelas tiba2 akan kua ayat begini "bosan la pulak..jom g mines nak tak??"
lepas tu kita senyum2 and zasss sepantas kilat tunggu bas rapid. tak payah pikir lama2.

she is calm n mature for her age, and often she gives rational thought if i seek for any.
dari sem 1 sampai practical sekali pun tak pernah ada masalah dengan dia. bila pikir balik rasa amazed jugak.
she knows my world and i know hers.
and so far this is the only friend yang pernah even sampai ke rumah seremban. ye i bukan simply let anyone be in my personal world.

i bukan jenis yang teruja dengan birth delivery kawan2..
tapi bila tau she has given birth i feel so happy...! and rasa excited nak jumpa dengan Ariff Zaffran...

i wish dearie mariam, azlan and baby ariff always in love, care and happiness... :)

i'm smart -- that way.

2011-01-12T22:40:00.005+08:00

i'm a going-to-be 26 year old lady with career.
i'm beautiful in my own way.
i'm wise enough to live my life.
i drive my own car.
i shop with my money.
i take care of my bills.
and i feed my self.

i'm not a significant career leader.
i'm not that pretty, hot and sexy.
and i'm not terrifically intelligent ass.

but i'm smart-- that way.

i miss my students.

2011-01-11T21:39:00.003+08:00

i took a commuter to work last monday. as i hopped in, few students with KGV badge on their scarves went out from the commuter.
i felt a rush inside. i supposed to be where they're heading to, but here i am.

i wonder how they're doing this year. i wonder if they manage well in class. i wonder if they ever think of me, for once.

i miss them so much.
the feeling is so intense these past few days.

i have left them for 3 months already.
the feeling; it supposed to get better.
instead, it gets worse.

Kasih ~

2011-01-10T22:21:00.003+08:00

Malam ini kasih teringat aku pada mu,
Seakan kau hadir di sisi menemani ku..
Ku yakin kan diri agar tiada sepi,
Ku lewat kau hadir di dalam mimpi ku..

Seandainya mungkin ku mampu terbang ke awan,
Detik ini juga ku akan melayang ke sana..
Kan ku bawa pulang,
Dirimu yang selalu ku sayang..
Bersama berdua kita bahagia..

Kasih dengarlah hatiku berkata,
Aku cinta kepada dirimu sayang..
Kasih percayalah kepada diriku..
Hidup matiku hanya untuk mu...

[Hetty Koes Endang - Kasih] cover-version by Dayang Nurfaizah

2011-01-05T22:56:00.001+08:00

there's nothing better than a great romance to ruin a perfectly good friendship.

young once again.

2011-01-04T21:32:00.004+08:00

masa muda-muda, bila bercinta :

pegi dating naek tren
pegi dating-dating di shopping mall
pegi jalan-jalan pusing kL
pegi makan dekat foodcourt/fastfood.
dok cerita-cerita pasal nak test nak exam.

masa dah berusia ni, bila bercinta:

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[sila isi tempat kosong dengan jawapan yang sesuai. jawapan soalan sila hantar kepada nombor 014*******. tidak dibenarkan meniru dan juga memberi tiru.]

it's two thousand eleven.!

2011-01-02T23:05:00.005+08:00

we had grown up together, technically.

and we will grow old together. definitely.

it's almost midnight and they were there bargaining the t-shirt. and when she heard the firework's sound, she knew it's already first day of 2011. sigh. she thought that instead of looking at the fluorescent lamp, she should be out there looking at those fireworks. it's a new year, anyway. she looked at her watch and said "it's new year."

he gazed into her eyes, he said "happy new year.." and he smiled.

and she smiled. she realized that he was her 'firework' after all. he never fail to make her absorb and fascinate. :')

where's the better place for her to be, rather than standing by his side?

the man and the lady were walking briskly together under the light of the street lamp. few minutes ago, the clock had ticked 12am of 2011.

"eh dah tahun dua ribu sebelas.... "

"semoga tuhan permudahkan urusan kita.."

they smiled, they ate, they reached the car waiting, and they went away.

"You know you love someone
when you cannot put into words
how they make you feel."

2010-12-30T15:02:00.003+08:00

i've been inspired by few ladies; they way they carry themselves. and they way they flaunt their confidence with their appearances.

darling fiance gave suggestion to go for a skirt. all these while i was afraid to.

well. people are afraid of something they don't know.

maybe i need to see myself in it, and his opinion on it.

preparing myself to leave lovely boot-cut jeans when i enter the new phase.

which is not that easy.

so now, the quest begins.

2011.

year of a change.

2010. the end..

2010-12-30T12:31:00.004+08:00

last night while listening to fly.fm, the deejay, she asked this question :

"what is the best thing that happened in your life in 2010?"

and it came right away.

-- being engaged to the person that i want to spend the rest of my life with.

and seeing him on the very evening, means everything.

:')

everything is complete,

2010-12-27T20:42:00.005+08:00

during the weekend everything else is complete,

except you.

they miss you.

we miss you.

i miss you...

and when you know; you know.

2010-12-22T22:58:00.003+08:00

when i start to quilt on that t-shirt,
when i start to listen to all those videos recording again and again,
when i start to talk to the videos and smile,,

..it would imply only one thing.

i need you to understand, i need you to understand..
i need you.. i need youuuu...

Kisah pertama kali makan tart telur.

2010-12-21T16:37:00.005+08:00

i ni kadang-kadang rasa simple, kadang-kadang rasa macam kompleks.

simple bila bab benda yang tak pernah makan i rasa okay fine boleh meneruskan hidup tanpa mencuba makanan tu sampai bila-bila. contohnya honey dew. dan durian belanda. apatah lagi air durian belanda. durian jadi air?? isk.

kompleks apabila rasa perlu ada keaslian terhadap makanan tu.
contohnya banana adalah untuk dimakan secara raw or cekodok or goreng pisang. bukannya sebagai banana cake mahu pun secret recipe punya banana cake. banana tak boleh jadi cake. faham tak?
sebab itu jugak i bukan penggemar nasik kandar. i tak suka kuah2 tu bercampur-campur. i akan makan mengikut partition masing-masing. so pinggan nasik i agak bersepah, ada kawan pernah tegur. so what.......

hence, bukanlah satu perkara yang mustahil bila selama 25 tahun hidup i tak pernah cuba makan tart telur. dalam imaginasi selama ni, tart telur ni mesti rasa dia euww euww pastu kuss semangat tepung tart tebal sangat so mesti tak sedap. [oh saya memang pandai bab2 buat andaian pasal makanan. erm. ]

pada suatu hari, masa ikut buah hati pengarang jantung sword barrel di Semenyih, dia dapat tart telur dalam goodie bag dia. well sebab i memang sejak azali tahu i takkan makan punya makanan yang tak sedap ni so i tak kesahla you nak makan seorang-seorang punnn... ye dengan konfidennye cakap dalam hati.
tapi buah hati sudah tau nature tunangnya suka sangat nak jugak apa benda fiance nye ada [seperti sebiji pendrive 256mb. uhukk..uhukk.erm] or apa yg dia makan, lalu dia offer share tart telur dia tu.
i sebab sayang kepada buah hati dan berkonsepkan pahit-manis-bersama-sama, berusaha gigit tart telur yg kononnya sure lah tak sedap punya.
tiba-tiba eh rasa sedap pulak benda ni!!! dan demand nak lagi.... nak make sure perasaan sedap tu masih sama. dan buah hati yg sayang kepada tunangnya itu pun merelakan tart telur beliau dihabiskan. haish kiut betol buah hati pengarang jantung i nih. :D

then, masa beriadah bersama keluarga di fudcourt KLCC, terjumpa tart telur. [macam terjumpa orang pulak. nvm] ...otak conservative ni mengatakan tart ni sepatutnya tak sedap, so dengan ragu-ragu beli 2 bijik tart, itu pun share dengan s-i-l.
tapi rasanya i semakin menyukai makanan baru ini lalu pergi beli lagi 2 bijik untuk diri sendiri. tak fahamlah kenapa kena beli banyak2 kali untuk meyakinkan diri sendiri bahawa tart telur tu sedap. hee.

so dengan ini i declare ''tart telur, welcome to my life.!"

oleh itu, kejap lagi akan pergi jumpa sebijik tart telur.. :) :) :)

Good Girl, Naughty Girl.

2010-12-19T20:57:00.002+08:00

today is my christmas day; and i am the Santa of myself.
which is good.
and which explains why my ultimate wish list is unfulfilled, too.

not so good girl, perhaps?